I used to carry hate, spite, jealousy, and contempt towards others, in one hand. In the other, depression, self destruction, and thoughts of suicide.

I cared little for others and even less for myself. I was selfish and thoughtless. I carried heavy loads of harmful bio-hazard. At the time, I had no idea of the poison that ran through my veins.
I was sinking in quick sand full of my own negativity.

Thank God, for the wake up call. I don't know when I changed, I just know I have. I choose to be a light to others. I…

15: I don't understand myself at all, for i want to do what is right, but i can't. I do what i want to – what i hate. 16: I know perfectly well that what i'm doing is wrong, and my conscience proves that i agree with the laws i am breaking. 17: but i c an't help myself, because i'm no l onger doing it. It is the sin inside me that is stronger than i am that makes me do these evil things. 18: I know i am rotten through and through so far as my old sinful…